Six weeks. That's how long Amber Lee and I have been dating. I never really thought that life would be perfect, I still have at least a little bit of realism running around in my psyche for me to believe that. On the whole, life has been good. My free time is essentially gone, a thing of the past, but this is a blessing rather than a curse, and I enjoy thoroughly spending time with my girlfriend.
Today, however, I miss her. It's odd... up until now it has been me who has left... for work or class. Now that she has a job, I must adjust to the fact that she will be gone at times as well. The worst part is that two months ago, had I been left alone on a Saturday afternoon, I would have had no problem with it; I would have found or made something for myself to do. But now I feel lost, unable to focus or concentrate. There is a large part of me that simply wants to pull the covers over my head and wait for her to come home.
This feeling is very strange for me. I am used to being self-sufficient, able to stand on my own. To become dependent, or interdependent upon/with someone else is all-together new to me. From one standpoint, I guess you could view this as us growing closer together, becoming more accustomed to being around each other, missing each other when we're gone. But another side of me wishes I had my own desire for action back. Maybe it will come tonight when I am at work. Maybe I am simply in a funk because of the weather, or because I am not doing the school work that I know I should be doing.
One good thing is that I have rather lost interest in video games. They simply do not hold any allure for me anymore. I have been slowly growing in this direction, but I can honestly say that I have had no desire to play any sort of video game at all today, despite being bored. Instead I re-arranged my room and am working on cleaning the bathrooms (which could definitely use some TLC).
Well, time to clean and then to get ready for work.
