It seems like the time for me to come climbing out of my hole again. It is interesting, looking back, to see how many times I have done just this... not posting for months at a time, and then suddenly reappearing on the stage.
Like past times, so many things have changed. I am one semester closer to being finished with school, a surreal feeling to say the least, and more than a little daunting to be honest. But I have always done rather well with change, so it is not something I am overly worried about or losing sleep over.
The Martini Room is finally off the ground. That one is still a little daunting for a myriad of reasons. I am not sure where my responsibilities lie, and it feels like I have been getting it wrong more than right. I am still not exactly sure what Tara wants from me, but I am beginning to suspect that she simply expects me to be perfect. This has been the cause of a decent level of stress in the past week or two. But this too will pass, and I will figure out my role in all of it.
I feel more and more as if I have less advice to give to people. I would not say that I am getting dumber, or forgetting where I stand on matters, only that I have nothing to contribute to people's lives. I think it is linked to the fact that I feel as if I am floundering right now, trying like crazy to keep my head above water. Again, this will pass with time, it simply is not a feeling I enjoy.
There is more I could say, discussing life in general, being a boyfriend, the joys of playing WoW again, life as a manager (not really any more glamorous than before, just more hectic). But now just does not feel like the time for that. I will say that the fire to work on The List has returned as hot as ever. But that too is for a different post.
